Just a shell,
an unfulfilled carcass,
the most useless being,
an emotionless lump of despair.
My heart falls to the pit of my stomach,
The glue seems to fail,
As my heart falls back to what is normal.
The tears cannot help themselves.
It hurts so bad....
The death inside of me robs me of my light,
I could just rot away into an oblivion,
I just feel so useless without you.
I catch the scent of your gorgeous hair,
and of your body, so strong.
The memories of the best night of my life,
play back to me every night.
I see you in my mind, smiling at me,
it makes me so happy.
I hear your voice e
I will smile at your face,
but
I will despise what you do.
The only one who fucked you over was you,
Remember the law of attraction.
Three times.
All the anger you sent,
Has indeed come to me.
You and your stupid war.
Hope you enjoy everything you have,
You've got it now, you've won.
I hope you are feeling happy now,
I am so torn, but now I am done.
Andrew an i had broken up and i was upset cuz he moved out and that was something he left behind. i was also really hurt by everything and decided to break it cuz it was something that was part of me.... i was broken
Always here for you,
Swear, I won't ever leave,
Through thick and thin,
Loving you, by your side, forever.
You are the one I love,
My heart is in your hands,
I trust you not to break it,
Keep it safe for me.
Holding on, holding out,
Always here, don't worry,
I couldn't ever leave you,
My heart just tells me, no.
Best friends forever,
We shall always stay,
Through thick and thin,
Lovers in every way.
Unconditional Love,
Undying commitment,
Every thought, each dream,
Makes me love you that much more.
Always here for you,
Swear, I won't ever leave,
Through thick and thin,
Loving you, by your side, forever.
Ripped out for all to see,
I give you my heart,
I try to smile,
As you throw it on the floor.
I love you more that I,
So tell me now, why do I try?
Try to win you back,
As you throw it on the floor.
I'd rip my heart out for you,
I'll sew myself shut,
Here it is, will you take it?
Wishing that you would just smile.
Got a lil knife,
Cut a lil hole,
Stick my hand in
All gooey and warm,
Pull.... pull... lil harder now.....
Scream out loud,
I think its stuck....
Do you hear the tearing of arteries and veins?
Can't you hear my pain?
Here it is.... placed in my hands,
Extended to you.
I am crying- but not for pain- but in fear
Current Residence: Hell... duh.. i am Satan. Favourite genre of music: man... i like it all.... *sigh* Operating System: my new laptop. dude i got a dell! Shell of choice: mah head Wallpaper of choice: the kind that tastes good. like envelopes. Skin of choice: mine- all white an glowy-like Favourite cartoon character: Death from Family Guy Personal Quote: They should have called it "Speak Like the Devil"
Favourite Visual Artist
my toe.
Favourite Movies
How High. the Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy. and Hayao Miyazaki films
Favourite TV Shows
Phineas and Ferb... hahaha.
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
(hed)pe. the union underground. lots. try asking.
Favourite Books
Dhammapada, Buddhism without Meditation, and the Bardo Thodol. (currently reading.)
Favourite Games
Risk
Favourite Gaming Platform
yer fuckin face
Tools of the Trade
what i got on my back.
Other Interests
vegan cooking. writing. driving. space. soco. photo. hiding from people.
yeah uhh this has gotten really weird.. fanfuckintastic.
this used to be the facebook before facebook. AND THIS WAS SOOOOOO MUCH BETTER. god.. where THE FUCK did we go wrong?!?!?!
anyhow.. no one cares. but 6 years later and a nice hole in my head and an adopted son later..... im here. to be a thundercunt once again.
now im going to my car to see in my union underground cd works. pray to your personal god it does, microsoft.
i fall in love with people. easily. but im so detached. its so odd. i gunna go sniff this sharpie now.
totally broken up i guess. he didnt give a fuck. suprise suprise. that would be much to much effort.
i wonder what i should tell our 2 boys when they ask when they grow up a bit and wonder where their selfish chauvinistic reptile of a father went.
god how awful.
deep down i think im alright with this. when i wake up time to pack. i guess. bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh
and ya know what..................... IM BREAKING FREE OF THESE CHAINS! FUCK THIS BULLSHIT! IM A GODDAMN HUMAN BEING! MY LIFE HAS VALUE!
a few things in life really shake up a person. and rightfully so. maybe cuz you have been lied to all of your life. but dont feel bad. we all have.
concepts people might need to get one of these days:
finding out extraterrestrial life forms are in fact real, so are 'myth'ologies- because the stories are about the Anunnaki, who were, to us, the 'gods'. and your religion is really bullshit with sprinkles. and I could go on explaining how it is.... using your precious Bible and even other 'holy' books as proof.. and you cant do a damn thing... know why? if i am wrong.. your books are wrong... technically speaking, you are even worse off than m
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